Vampires! A Dark Alleyway

A pretty cool game. And one you can either roleplay in or not. When I first started playing it, I wasn't aware of the RPing aspect. But now I can't imagine playing it without.

If you want to play, click the link. You'll help me out if you do :)

http://quiz.ravenblack.net/blood.pl?biter=vendetta

No Pressure

My mother informs me, the other night when we were out for her birthday dinner, that my grandmother wants me to get married.

Translated: My grandmother wants a wedding and since my brother disappointed her it is now up to me.

Grandma feels she won't be around long enough to see Christopher get married, let alone Kelly (oldest first cousin, and by oldest I mean several years younger than Chris)

So now it is up to me...



Join me in rousing round of hysterical laughter, won't you?

Foolishness

My brother has stopped taking classes. The military pays for the classes (as long as you get a grade of 'C' or above) but you have to foot the bill for the books. So his excuse is that he cannot afford the books. And I'm sure this is true. Money is tight and books are expensive.

But...fuck

Boy, I will give you the goddamned money for a couple of classes worth of books. What the hell is wrong with you??

I always had high hopes for Greg. He is by far the smartest of the three of us. But he had no real drive. He's shaped up considerably since joining the military. Not that you really have much of a choice.

We joke constantly that we messed up...that I should have been the one to go in the military and he should have gone to college. It stopped being so funny because it's looking more and more truthful as time wears on.

Still thinking about joining the military myself. Fleeting thoughts, but they are there none the less. It just seems the lesser of two evils.

Ah well. I have a few years left until I really have to decide. I'm hoping something else will crop up in the meantime.

Why I Love Shawn

[Note: names have been omitted to protect the moronic]

Shawn: men suck
Auto-response sent to Shawn: "You never know what you need until you find it. And the next thing I find it might be the thing that changes everything."

"What will you do when you find it?"

"Sleep...the most perfect sleep."

Shawn: grrrrrrr
Shawn: I told L**** that D**** wanted to see me when I went to NC, and what is his response?
Shawn: You should get some and then just leave....not the response I wanted....I wanted the "OVER MY DEAD BODY" response I would give to the same thing
Shawn: damn men
Shawn: he could at least feign jealousy
Shawn: why is it that we can have a great jealous rage and express it with all the fire in hell, but he can do that, he has to go with that damn passive agressive shit
Shawn: why can't he be a Scorpio?
Shawn: is it that difficult to see green and burn with all the fires of hell??
Shawn: I miss you

Now, those of you who have not read my profile, I am a Scorpio. I am a very proud Scorpio. There are two things we are good at; sex and jealousy. If they were olympic events, we would always take the gold.

Shawn once told me he would marry me in a heart beat, if he were straight. And I take that as a very high compliment. Because I know he really means it. In another life and another time, I could easily see myself as his wife.



I miss you, Shawn.

Caffine

Went to Dunkin Donuts this morning and got a medium carmel iced latte. I got a large one once, and was subsequently up for the next 36 hours. I'm still buzzing from the caffine. It feels like my heart is trying to break out of the confines of my ribcage, even though it is beating only moderately faster than normal. Not a huge fan of that feeling.

I either have to start drinking them more or drinking them less. Not sure which I will choose. I probably could have suffered through the day without it.

Early

Didn't sleep well last night. Since Mom is still on vacation the dog has taken to staying in my bed. Both she and I are restless sleepers, but me moreso. That, and I think I'm afraid of crushing her. A 12 lb dog can somehow find the exact dead center of a full size bed and be content for you to conform to her and not the other way around.

Speaking of Mom, her birthday is on Sunday. Still don't know what I am going to get her. Any ideas?

I'm off to work soon. But I think it's a day for caffine.

Angry

Woke up angry this morning. It had been a little while since that had happened. And to be honest I am fucking sick of it.

Felt like smashing the bathroom mirror.

Yeah, this is going to be a fantastic day.

Outside

I went out this evening. Just out. I had to pick up my brother from work at a certain time, but I left the house well before I had to. Ended up at a bookstore, but spent more time outside of it than in it.

It's a cool night. Not at all like a day in the middle of August. It reminds me of all those times I used to sit outside by the lake up at school, and practically freeze because of the wind. I didn't freeze tonight, but my toes got very cold.

I'm tired of thinking.

I'm tired of being cold.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

Mom's off to Florida today. She's visiting my Godparents. The storms down there have passed for the most part, so that is one less thing to worry about.

Heavens know she deserves a vacation.

Have fun, Mom. I'll see you on Saturday.

New Help

Damn it's early...

On the plus side though, we hired a new person at work and they are starting today. Which is a good thing on all sorts of levels. Especially since today is going to be all sorts of long. Training the new person isn't always that much fun. Especially when your supervisor thinks it would be funny to blame you if they screw up because you trained them.

Ah well.

I'll be able to write with a little more regularity now that we have the help again.

Back

Took a small trip over the past day and a half. Sorely, sorely needed. Tired as hell, but that's okay. It was the closest thing to a vacation that I have seen, or will see, for a while.

Happy Anniversary

Today is my parents 29th wedding anniversary. Yeah, it boggles my mind too.

Have a good one, Mom and Dad.

Starting

Yesterday I started exercising again. Today, various muscle groups are upset with me. But that is okay, the soreness won't last. It mostly had to do with something my Godmother said to me. My Godfather has been in and out of the hospital over the past several weeks, and the main reason he is still around is because he is an exercise fiend. [They will be moving to West Virginia, I discovered today. Immensely pleased I am for that is so much closer than where they are now.]

Now, I have no intention of making exercise the focal point of my life, but some is better than none. And given the myriad of health problems my family suffers from, it probably wouldn't be a bad idea. Yay, heredity.

So tomorrow we will start again. I usually have the schedule of Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday, but I am taking a small trip on Tuesday. If I skip exercising entirely, chances are I won't start up again.

Wish me luck.

When in Rome...

Started a blog today, how about that?

The title comes from 'The Raven' by Edgar Allen Poe. [Duh, Melissa, Everyone knows that...] One of my favorite poems. Greg and I used to be able to recite most of it to each other.

I miss Greg. This time, last year, I went to visit him. Got the second of what I am positive is going to be many tattoos. Already have an idea for the third, but I'll probably wait until March to get it. Hopefully Greg will be home then and he and I will take our youngest brother to get inked, since he will be turing 18. It seems that is how my siblings and I bond; we permanently mark our flesh. Megan will have to come with us though, as I promised her that she could be a witness, seeing as how she was not around for the previous 2 times.

Going to rest for a while. The world weighs heavy as of late.