Tick Tock

It sucks that we only get one shot at this whole life thing. There are no do-overs. No re-rolls-my-dice-went-off-the-board type thing.

I can't sleep tonight because my mind won't let me. There are so many decisions that need to be made, and yet I can't make any of them because of the uncertainty, because of the lack of information.

Will I be moving to a new building? Will my schedule change? Will my time off for the holidays still remain the same? Will I go back to NY to take a job not in my field? Will I ever feel like not a failure?

The second hand refuses to let me forget the passage of time.