RH is the only one at work I have told about my relationship being over. I wasn't really planning on it, he just happened to catch me in a weak moment.

He and I get along very well. He was the first person I met when I started my job. He is a Cancer, hard on the outside but soft on the inside. I suppose Cancers and Scorpios get along very well, as one of my best friends is a Cancer.

We talked for about an hour, before lunchtime. We talked of relationships, or lack thereof. He is enjoying his freedom, and will perhaps settle down when he gets a bit older. 'You can have steak for a couple of years, but one day really crave some chicken,' he told me. And I couldn't help but think of a line from Medium where Joe says to Allison 'Why go out for hamburger when I have steak at home?' Whatever is your preference, I suppose.

It made me chuckle when he told me that sometimes when he feels lonely, he watches a funny movie. It works as a distraction.

Which work also serves as.

Although I have not wanted to go to wok at all for the past week and a half, it helps because it gives me something to do, something to be occupied with.

Anger is slowly clouding out the sadness.

Which is fine, I suppose. I'm getting tired of feeling sad anyway.

It's Good To Be The King

CS: http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=2683701783583080634
Just thought I'd pass this video of the documentary along. I've read enough about this (while writing a paper on Michel Foucault, for what it's worth), but never actually seen this documentary. Weird stuff, eh?

C: Seen it before
If you get a chance, look up the movie "Das Experiment", I recommend it.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0250258/

A: Interesting and disturbing. I saw it years ago. similar one done a long time ago where the teacher divided the classroom into blue and brown eyed students (don't remember for sure which group was deemed positive). Speaks volumes about are base animal nature.

ch: I saw em both. I think the class seperation one was cool, and more teachers should do it.

me: I think they took turns. First the brown eyes were deemed positive, then the roles were reversed.

A: thank you for being my memory, Nov. I've always depended on the kindness of strangers.
: )
I wonder what they would have done with me and my hazel eyes?

me: Always here to help.
And of course, you would have been made ruler of them all with your hazel eyes. Because in the land of the blue and brown eyes, the hazel eyed man is king.

A: Marry me! Damn you.
(note: move to Salt Lake City, become a mormon, and practice polygamy)
: )

me: Ah, there is no need for that extreme (thank god), as I am once again single.
unless....you are the one who wishes to practice polygamy...
So thanks for the smile. They have been sorely lacking as of late.

A: Sometimes we tend to view things as the grass being greener on the other side...at least I do. Enjoy your singleness while you have it. You're too good of a woman for it to last long.
>unless....you are the one who wishes to practice pologamy...
That is what I intended to mean..but upon reflection I've since come to the conclusion that one woman is already more than any one man can handle in life...and still stay semi-sane.
My hat's off to any man that can be happy with multiple wives, because, frankly, women are the source of both great happiness and great consternation and knashing of teeth in life.
*and no doubt women say the same thing about men : )

It's funny how you replay old conversations.
And by doing this you can't help but think that everything ever told to you was a lie.

Me: Hi Mom
Mom: Hi baby. How are you?
Me: Doing okay. It's hot as hell.
Mom: What's wrong?

Damn her motherly senses. She can hear the slightest hitch in my voice from 200 miles away.

It's going to be a fun Sunday.

And Off Again

I wish I could pretend like nothing happened
That I could go on with my life like it was just another day


But instead, I have to figure out how I am going to lie to my family on Sunday
Pretend like there is nothing wrong
I doubt that I will be able to
And my mother will tell me that I can come home
And I just might take her up on that


How in the course of 24 hours my relationship became non existant
How someone I thought who was in love with me, isn't
How we went from 'Maybe we should take a break' to 'we probably shouldn't live together anymore.'


I'm tired
I'm tired of not sleeping
I'm tired of people asking me why my eyes are red

I'm tired of this only hurting me

Just to let you know...I am probably going to be in a bad way for a while.

o/` I want to ride my bicycle o/`

Me: Dad, did mom send my bike helmet yet?
Dad: No. It's sitting here on the table.
Me: [Pause] She works at the USPS.
Dad: I know. She just forgot.
Me: I've got two words for you: Ben Roethlisberger
Dad: I'm looking for a box right now.

Yeah

I am pissed.

Over the weekend I decided to be productive and do some laundry.

And with the laundry I decided, inadvertently, that my cell phone needed a bath.

Yeah...

So, $200 later I have a new phone.

I knew someone who had done this to their phone. And I remember thinking, 'How incredibly dumb. I would never do that with my cell phone.'

Once again, the PTBs have a sense of humor...

Although, after having had a cell phone (different ones) over the years, I am kind of surprised I haven't done it sooner.

Song

Was featured on an episode of CSI, and I only recently found out who it was by.

Gary Jules
Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very, mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very, mad world, mad world
Enlarging your world, mad world

Top 10 Superhero Movies

By David Fear. Comments by me.

10. - The Rocketeer <-- very cute. saw it forever ago.
9. - Spy Kids
8. - Hellboy <-- saw it. own the Director's Cut
7. - Inframan
6. - Darkman
5. - Superman II
4. - The Incredibles <-- saw it. loved it.
3. - Spider-Man <-- saw it. loved it. Kirsten Dunst plays the perfect MJ.
2. - Batman Returns <--saw it. Michelle P. is creepy in leather.
1. - X-Men <-- saw it. loved it. So many beautiful mutants.

5 Worst Superhero Films

by Mark Fear

Read this on MSN. #1 made me laugh so hard.

Worst Superhero Films:
5. "Hulk" (2003) Hulk no like Ang Lee's Freudian analysis of Hulk's rage. Make Hulk want to smash!
4. "Fantastic Four" (2005) Marvel's first cornerstone title kicked off the Silver Age of comics, but all these legends get is an X-Games commercial masquerading as a blockbuster. Clobberin' time indeed.
3. "Catwoman" (2004) Technically, she's a supervillian, but since the film is the one perpetrating the real crime against humanity, we're willing to let that detail slide.
2. "Daredevil" (2003) After watching Ben Affleck and director Mark Steven Johnson ruin this cult superhero, you might envy the title character's blindness.
1. "Batman & Robin" (1997) Four words: The Batsuit has nipples.