And Off Again

I wish I could pretend like nothing happened
That I could go on with my life like it was just another day


But instead, I have to figure out how I am going to lie to my family on Sunday
Pretend like there is nothing wrong
I doubt that I will be able to
And my mother will tell me that I can come home
And I just might take her up on that


How in the course of 24 hours my relationship became non existant
How someone I thought who was in love with me, isn't
How we went from 'Maybe we should take a break' to 'we probably shouldn't live together anymore.'


I'm tired
I'm tired of not sleeping
I'm tired of people asking me why my eyes are red

I'm tired of this only hurting me